Wednesday, September 30, 2015


I was asked which numbers is my favourite to perform and I responded with "Stars Dance" there is another one that is special for me to perform is "Orbit", The song was recorded by dear friends of mine and the album itself will forever have a special place in my heart. I am glad that even if I never perform again, it was one of the last numbers I performed and at one of the venues they performed in. I feel very fortunate to be surrounded and know such talented inviduals


Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Q&A and answering some questions

I decided to answer questions from my Ask or where personally messaged to me:

Q: What happened with the Columbus Burlesque Collective?
 Well, I really don't want to go into it that much because that is a chapter that is now closed for me. It was one of those things where I thought I was with artists who supported one another, yet it turned out to be completely opposite. It has really changed how I view burlesque all together and if it is something I want to continue with. But, how it all played out putting that much time and energy into something; yes, without noticed I was removed no one even spoke to me about it until I read the comments on my blog about any issues. But, I do wish them all the best but honestly, glad that chapter is done. I don't think I will ever become involved with a troupe/group again however; I am sticking to being an full independent artist.
Q: Will you continue to perform?
Yes. When, not certain. I am in talks to perform again but I like having this break; it gave me a chance to put things in perspective plus I also returned to my studies. It is a balance, you know? I figured all this energy put into my future which is long lasting and rewarding further on down the road.
Q: What is Tinker Box?
Tinker Box Caberet was something I was thinking of for quite some time. It is more than a "troupe" the idea was the provide an image for women mainly women who are "different" than mainstream burlesque. I see it all the time where minority women aren't appreciated or taken seriously in burlesque at least where I live now. It is one of those things were you don't have to be platinum blonde, super thin I always thought burlesque was about empowering women and giving women something to feel good about. This is the very reason I became a burlesque performer because there aren't many women who look like me performing. Think it would be nice to see other performers who are Native, Asian, African-American, Biracial performing, we need a voice too.

Q: What is with the spelling?
The spelling as with the concept my Goddaughter actually spelled it that way and I thought it was one of the most precious things; also when I was thinking of the design and the "e" is flipped or an upside down "a" in reverse because it is a reverse of what we know of "mainstream" burlesque. I know so many people made fun of or criticized the spelling but goes to show what they know, right?

Q: Do you hate burlesque?
I have a love/hate relationship with burlesque. Yes, I love performing, the costuming, the choreography but there is an ugliness inside of it. I have heard many performers say, "we empower other women" yet those are the same ones who send me hate messages or tell me what a crappy performer I am. Funny thing is majority of the performer who say how terrible I am never actually seen me perform or have done anything with me all. That is what I hate about it, the fakeness and hypocrisy

Q: What is on your playlist?
What is on my playlist....I'm very eclectic so it can be Migos/Drake one minute and Marilyn Manson the next, I have been discovering a lot of music from my friends who are making new music, they are so talented and absolutely proud of them in every way.

Q: Favorite number to perform?
Stars Dance. I love the concept behind it and yes it is an occult theme to it. Probably the others are the new numbers I have been working on they're completely different and I can actually be myself and not worry about being a performer I am not. I can be dark and not have pressure to be bubble gum or a ghetto hip hop queen.

Q: Feelings about ballet?
I absolutely love ballet. I started when I was six years old. I still take lessons and I also do modern dance and bellydance. They help me with performing and always will be a ballerina, don't care what anyone says.

Q: Do you feel like you're ageist?
A: Not at all, and my comments were completely misconstrued. I never said because of a certain age a person can't perform however when you are in an industry where you're selling your sexuality or yourself as a sex symbol it isn't very long lasting and that is a fact of life. I also feel when a person is 10 to 15 years older than I am or close to 50 that says quite a bit when they are sending someone my age messages about how I look or I need to kill myself, etc. I'm like who does that? So yes, a lot of immaturity emotionally and if they perceived that as ageist then that is them.

Q: What about the comments about being better than everyone?
A: I don't think I am, reading back that comment I sort of feel like that is a comment which came from jealousy. It's like "you studied ballet, you think you're better"

Q: Are you religious?
A: I consider myself more spiritual than religious. Spirituality has always been an important part of who I am and always will be. I am an Eastern Orthodox Christian and not ashamed to admit it. I think people need some sort of belief system it teaches us about life in general and how to be, that inner peace. Think a lot of people just aren't happy with themselves they need something to blame or push the negativity on.